de bi t ch. [Happiness is a journey, not a destination.]

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

what's love?

you know i always and i think many people always dream of being with the one they truly love. but as i grow older, and see the world more, love doesn't seem to be the only thing essential in a relationship. and that to me is rather depressing. extremely depressing in fact.

that dream that i always had, or you always see on tv. it's all rubbish. at the end of the day, there seem to be so many other factors that actually makes a relationsip going. and as much as we hate to admit, convenience does play a part too. i learnt so much in the past year. each time i thought yes finally. but i'm wrong again. there was religion, there was environment which all leads to the future. and the love concept that i always had, falling madly in love with someone, that love can triumph all, that love is all you need, is slowly fading away. that in fact i realise that, as time grows, it is possible for love to develop even though you might not in the beginning. maybe that's how arranged marriage work eh? how sad. seriously.

that's damn sad. and unbelievable. i'm glad to have loved and be loved, not just once in fact. and i'm thankful for that. but i'm sick of tired of wasting time, and going through everything that we've built, that we had and having to leave it all behind due to circumstances. i'm only freaking 20. but i'm tired already honestly.

is it still possible to live for the moment? who am i to kid? i know that i'm not that sort of person. i can't possibly do that. but should i once again? i never used to think so much. but things have changed. i'm tired. and living for the moment just doesn't seem a likely option. freaking confused. stupid shit.

lastly, can't love really triumph all? can't love just be all you need? was all those thoughts just a dream? then why does God make me go through each and everyone of them? to learn that love is not all? sigh. this sucks. bleah.

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